Finally HE leave me!!!

Finally he leave me this time...

I dunno how to do and dunno wat to say..

When I really make decision, I thought we together back will so happy.

But in the end, he choose to get another gal.

Is really so fast..

We officially is a couple just did not show it out to people.

As he think is not..

I hope myself can wish him but i cant.

I'm falling in love to him again then he leave me alone here..

What I can do...

Cant Sleep, Cant eat n keep thinking all the memories between me n him.

All is my fault..

before he is here i dunno how to appreciate,

When I wanna together back with him is too late..

He already have another galfren at outside.

Without noties me n just let me find out myself.

we just bcoz the time.. When I wanna to tell u I accept u.. I din meet u.. no chance...

When I meet u I have chance ard.. U already get a galfren..

Y dont u just let me know when u wanna get the gal.

maybe the situation now is different..

U say u still love me.. All is lie..

You're not at my side anymore..

It just a FAITH!!!

I'm falling in love again..

Is him.. He never let go wit me...

Although I hurt him so much.. He still choose wanna chase me back..

Am I really a good gal fren??

i feel I'm bad i just know how to hanging him dun let him go n dun accept him..

Is just coz I hurt him too deep ard...

He hurt I also hurt.. 

Scare to hurt him 3rd times...

Last week finally I make decision ard..

I wanna together back wit him..

BUT... 

Suddenly everything change

If i dont call him he also wont call me..

After finish night shift I direct go find him just feel wanna meet him n hug him

but when i meet him I feel i just a stupid gal..

I make so many busybody thing..

Can just feel that he dunwan meet me only.

Last week finally my offday reach finish work i go find him

then he is so sleepy after few hour he wake up ard

im so happy thought can go watch movie wit him

but he tell me he sick ard dunwan go out.

Really feel so hurt in that moment.

But just few minute he go play game again.

"U just tell me that u'r so sick wanna rest but just a munite u 'r playing game"

I was so angry then i run off the house..

He never chase me n just let me go..

In the moment, really cry...

Feel that he not love me ard..

at night time I still dunwan any face go find him and he say watch movie ard...

Feel so happy.. but when i reach his house..

He tell me he wan yam cha wit his fren..

He everyday also yam cha wit his fren cant just gv 1 day to me??

When he meet his fren wat sick also recover ard..

Really feel that I not important to him.

I'm not his LOVER anymore..

5 days ard.. I didn't receive any call, msg and meet him ard...

Feel so miss him..

but i know I'm just nothing for him now..

Y the faith was like that??

When I scare to hurt him and no courage to accept him.. 

He Dunwan let me go..

When I hv the courage to accept him,

He wont care me anymore ard...

2010!!!

Just finish work from the night shift..

Nothing to do and long time din write blog ardd la...

In this perior working night shift really block so much my time...

All the fren go watch movie, shopping and yam cha then i should working..

Suddenly feel so lonely like all my fren is leave me alone...

My heart suddenly so emo..

Maybe is when i think to my jie mui..

all like boikot me never ask me go out yam cha ard..

They planning trip also din call me..

The last time i gather with them also feel like i just a outsider joining their table..

So many thing happen but I wat also dunno, and They also dun wish to let me know..

Wat did I do???

Y all treating me like this??

Haiz.. They wan treated me like this I also no choice just can accept..

Sick Again!!

This few week "working" really take all my time.

No more privite time no more fun..

everyday just sleep 3 o 4 hour then continue work whole day.

finally at my offday,

Beh Tahan already Sick again..

Im Tired on this job but i cant run coz stil new and not enough experience.

Haiz then, Should I wait until wat time??

Super Duper poor month!!

This Month salary low but work more...

some more all getting 21st years old liao..

Damn poor now..

Today is Choi yee & Hoong Birthday..

Then after tonight is Ivan..

Just this week already got 3 fren b'day..

Coming soon still got a lot a lot tim ah..

MISKIN LA...

求签！！

Last two day ago I go 九皇爷庙。。

after we pray all the god then me n ah nee go 求签

haha..

the explain guy tell me everything also good..

Damn happy of that..

But at the last he tell me Ur "LOVE" status is very bad...

Haiz... but i also know tat already since i single so long time liao..

Have o din have also same to me..

Just hope tat my life go smoothly then enough liao..

All I wanna do is make my wish come truth...

I really hope I can do tat but need very long time n Money to success it..

Happy night...

My sweety jie mui.. Love u so much ah....

Muacksss.....

So happy that meet u tonight then yam cha after that continue Sing K...

Our Frenship Forever!!!!